The past year or so have been strange for me. I feel like someone has hit a pause button on my life. I've spent the last few weeks feeling pretty sorry for myself, mainly because of financial constraints meaning that I couldn't really do anything at all. But I've been thinking about the past year.
The life and people I knew from the age of 17 changed overnight and then over the past year I've slowly changed. My tastes have changed, my taste in clothes and accessories have changed a lot. For a long time I kept feeling that my friends had changed and that annoyed me, until I realised that it wasn't them, it was me. They still wanted to do the same things we always did, and the other things they suggest doing, I never have the finances to join in so I feel like the pauper, can't join in and I blame everyone but myself for that.
The problem is, I I'm waiting for something to happen. My flat has been on the market for 14 months with no end in sight. Until it sells, I don't have a lot of money. I have no social life to speak of so I have resorted to never ending watching of DVDs and sporting events - Loving the olympics by the way! I got a new job late last year which is going spectacularly well at the moment so I'm not a total loss. I have my job, my friends are still awesome, I have my crazy dog, I am doing a marathon walk in 6 weeks. I'm looking forward to the World Cup.
So in short, all my introspection has made realise that I have to make more of an effort. Make more of an effort with my friends, who despite myself, are always there when I need them. I need to remember who lucky I am to have them in my life. And in the meantime, I shall amuse myself by talking to relative strangers on twitter.
Oh, and if you do know anyone who wants to buy my flat, that would be great!
